So while no one really ever reads this blog I thought I'd start writing my own little personal thoughts and stories that happen in my often crazy life, but mostly boring :)  I've tried to start other blogs to do this anonymously but I always forget the name of the blog or my password so I'm just going to do this here since I already know those important facts!  Recently life has been frustrating not just because of kids but just little things that are on my plate or my kids.  I really wanted to stop babysitting because sometimes lets face it those cute little kiddos (two year olds) with the constant whys? how comes? NO's! not listening,  not eating, throwing tantrums, hitting each other, and well just being 2, gets a little tiring and it wares on this lady after awhile.  I tried to get more hours at my part time job but my boss got fired and she was the one that was promising me more hours if I could just open my availability a little, so I did, I found someone that would watch Alaina and everything.  Well, she's gone and so is that promise so here I am babysitting again.  I did also try and get a job being a lunch lady but that didn't pan out either.  So while I really don't want to babysit anymore I am.  Don't get me wrong I really like the little boys I watch, but today I needed to run an errand and I had Alaina and Brody, both 2 yrs old, I took them to the bank to pay a bill.  We were there a minimum of  5 minutes, they pulled down those stretchy fence things that tell you where to form a line, they ran into a conference room and screamed at me!  All of these things still didn't deter that man behind the counter from trying to sell me some kind of service!  REALLY!  Why yes let me just stay here a little longer while these little people of mine go about this bank annoying everyone in their path.  Sigh....So yes babysitting again.  This leads me to my next thought.  I'm really a selfish person.  I should be very happy that I have a babysitting job and a part-time job, there are people that don't have any jobs.  But yet I still complain.  I'm sitting here now with a bag of chips in my lap a messy house and 2 sleeping toddlers and no other kids.  Yep living the dream :)
Don't get me wrong I love my life and really wouldn't have it any other way it's just been one of those days.

So being a mom of 4 kids is hard....well pretty much just being a mom no matter how many kids you have is hard.  There are so many levels of being a mom, it's crazy and exhausting, you love your kids no matter what but there are those days, you know... those days.  Every mom has them.  The days you're thinking, WTH did I do wrong, this really isn't my child, you have got to be kidding me, is it bed time yet?  Can I take a Valium or better yet give my kids one?  Yeah, those days.  Now that my kids, well some of them are a little older those days are coming more frequently, and while I really enjoy my kids getting older I still miss them little.  Having a 2 year old still is awesome, I still get those sweet moments of hugs and kisses, arms wrapped around your legs hugs.

No doubt this is the best calling of life I have, I wouldn't want it any other way.  I recently have made some decisions and gone back on decisions and yet again still don't know what I'm doing.  I was doing in home day-care and while it was great staying at home, I've never gotten one on one time with Alaina.  This past summer some of my families have lost jobs or have gone on maternity leave so I have been struggling to find just what I'm going to do to make a little extra money.  I asked around to see if anyone could watch Alaina, while some said yes sometimes and others said no I did find someone to watch her.  So I decided to go to work during the days at the Loft where I work.  THEN, a flier came home with my kids about the schools needing help in the cafeterias, that actually sounded fun, so I went and applied and now am just waiting.  I really am not sure if it's the right thing to do because I really enjoy spending time with Alaina, she's a cool kid :)  But at the same time we all know that in this economy we really just cant sit back and wait for money to fall in to our wallets (that would be super rad!)  So while I write this I still don't know what I'm doing I guess I'm just waiting for inspiration or something.

So about the kids, Bailee is now in 7th grade and is such a great kid, I couldn't have asked for a better pre-teen girl.  She is in band and still super smart.  She really loves school.  I'm so proud of her!

Maddi is in 3rd grade, she has Bailee's 3rd grade teachers and she loves them, they are 2 part time teachers that share a class, it's pretty cool.  She also got baptized on her birthday, and for those of you who don't know in the LDS religion kids are baptized at the age of 8.  And for her to have it done on her actual birthday, that's pretty cool!  She was so excited and almost all of Conan's family was able to be there it was a very special day.

Samuel is a big 1st grader and he has a class with his best friend Ryan, and he loves it too.  Although I think he gets really tired since this is his first time going to school all day everyday.

Alaina is just hanging out with me and she is my shadow, she follows me around all day talking my ear off.  Yesterday in the car she said she wanted to stop and do somersaults down the hill, but decided she better not because it was too hot out side.  She said this all with a very serious look on her face.  She is too funny!

Conan, he is working his butt of at work for all of us and then comes home and works just as hard taking care of things so I can go to work.  He's getting tired too. :)  So that about sums it up!


                                                        This is the serious look!

My super awesome sister in-law Megan came for Maddi's baptism and took our family pictures.